I feel physically ill. I have not felt like this about someone since Tyler and it is HORRIBLE. I hate the kind of attachment I feel for this person. I am so hungry for his attention and I can't balance between telling him how I feel and not coming off as clingy or overly-interested. It is driving me crazy and I want to cry and jjust let all of this stress out. So much confliction about the situation and so many contradictions and so much confusion.
I want to just fall on the floor about working a double tomorrow. This has been the worst couple of months I've had in a long, long time. I just want it all to stop. Just stop right now. No more feelings about this. Stop
