Ya know, have a good cry, talk about it, let it out. You'll find a way. You wont have to ever go to bed like that. But dont you love to have serious and quite deep conversations with your mum while in bed. She: almost completely naked. And it doesn't phase you. And when you talk about the house being a mess... well, "...someone pulls a bible out and doesn't put it away. Daddy leaves his crumbs of... paper... and shit everywhere. I get frustrated with the condition of the house too!!" I almost had to laugh. It's ok. Just always know that. And never resort to a romanticized and changeless state.
Gonna be so tired tomorrow..
9/27/09
